My 1st post .. this blog no one kws .. im going to write all my feelings down .. im so disappointed .. we went to the movie .. but so what ? we only sat down for 30 mins .. and u went home ..
i tot we can watch till 5 .. then i 6 + then go home .. u ask me to act like a stranger to u .. i didnt talk to u a lot .. i nv hold ur hand when walking .. isit that what u want ? ..
after u go home u can go out de .. u chose to watch the cd .. i ownself also haven watch de .. i lend u le .. u keep ask me to go home .. so u can watch ba ? ..
after i say bb i went down and send u a msg .. i said wo ai ni .. u got reply me ma ? .. all u care is abt the show .. what abt me ? .. what am i to u ? .. a toy ma ? .. maybe cause i not so nice at all or what .. then make u ps .. if really is lidat then nvm ba .. after that i sms u again .. u tell me it was nice .. how many times u call me dar today ? .. 1 or 2 ? .. i duno why u've become lidat .. ur nt the vanessa i knw .. u really changed .. im nt so impt to u like last time .. i feel no love from u at all .. why ..
from today onwards im going to blog everyday .. until the day i leave this world .. since no one knw this im going to say it out .. i hate it .. i hate everythin .. i hate you treating me like a toy .. i hate u for not caring abt me .. i hate myself .. im sick ler .. with some illness .. u dun even knw ba cause i nv tell u .. if one day i really die .. who wil read this blog ? no one .. but myself ..
